SORT OF KIND OF DOING A BEYONCE WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE

When I think of the personification of a strong, independent, feisty 

woman, I almost always think of the fabulous 

Beyonce Knowles.

To me, this woman is the definition of female

empowerment, and as of today, as the title says, I'm sort of kind

of doing a Beyonce myself and following in her footsteps 

and adopting her mantra when it comes to love.

Because you see, dear reader, lately something

inside me has changed.

I didn't notice this had changed until the last few weeks

it sort of hit me wham bam and I was just like

'what de.... when deed dees happen?'

And I'll tell you about it now.

For as long as I can remember being a fluorescent adolescent,

I have always had crushes and always always

always wanted a boyfriend and a super cute relationship and

yaddah yaddah yah.

Even earlier this year I was yearning for it,

and I always seemed to feel insecure because I didn't have

a boyfriend. I felt incomplete, like something was missing.

I felt frustrated that I didn't have what my

friends had, and that I could never seem to find love or a

boyfriend. 

It was like I deemed myself inadequate until

I found my match.

The thought of being the only girl in my friendship group

without a boyfriend scared the crap out of me.

The thought of never finding a boyfriend till university

made me want to cry up to the heavens to get

God himself to come down here and reason with me

as to why I couldn't have one sooner.

But then..... at some point this month,

something changed.

This longing, this insecurity, this need, this desire,

this sadness, this frustration, this wanting, this caring, it all

just disappeared, went right out the window.

And I suddenly realised that the fact of the matter was,

I DIDN'T CARE.

About boys, love, any of it.

And for me that's a pretty big thing.

And what I mean by not caring is this:

1) I don't care that I don't have a boyfriend.

2) I don't care that it's not working out with anyone I do meet.

3) I don't care that my friends have boyfriends and dates

and I don't; I don't feel any less than them or

like I'm missing out.

-How can I miss something I've never had or experienced?

4) In a typical British sentiment I quite simply cannot be

arsed to stress over this anymore.

Q) Who cares?
A) Not me! (finally)

I'm not yearning for love and romance and relationships and boys.

I literally do not care.

Today I decided it was the right time to hold my hands

up and surrender, admit it's not working, it's not my time or my

moment, and take a step back out of the game.

I read somewhere that sometimes you need to give in and accept

defeat in order for better things to come together.

And that's what I'm doing. 

I'm not walking away with or out of shame or defeat or weakness,

I'm walking away because I realised actually I'm happy on my own.

And this is where the whole Beyonce bit comes in.

I realised that I have never felt as strong, independent or

mentally and emotionally well as I do right now.

To use another British sentiment, I feel BLOODY FANTASTIC, and 

if there was anytime that I felt I was ready

to stand proud on my own two feet, it's now.

I can handle being single.

I don't feel like I need anyone to complete me or support me,

and I'm actually kind of glad I haven't met the right person yet and

that it hasn't worked at all for me yet.

Having said that, I know I'm on this love sabbatical and all that,

but if the right person happened to pop up and say hi,

or if my dream way to fall in love happens, where I see

a stranger across a room and I just know right there and then

that he is the one, then that again is BLOODY FANTASTIC.

But until that moment comes,

I bid you farewell tonight as a girl on the brink

of womanhood who is feeling single and proud and pretty alright

and just a little bit sassy, if I must admit it.

And if I can make it to this stage,

then I'm pretty sure you can too.

Don't be afraid to walk alone and don't be afraid to like it <3

BANGING OUT THE BEAUTY TIPS

Now I can't believe that I am actually giving

some beauty tips, me (if you knew me in real life, aside from

my cool internet persona *wink wink nudge nudge* you would understand).

But this morning I was drying my hair,

as you do, when all of a sudden all these beauty tips started coming to me, and I was like 'need to get this out somewhere',

and nine hours later,

here we are.

And I've named this post

'BANGING OUT THE BEAUTY TIPS' which I think

goes to emphasize my earlier point, that I am really not a beauty expert.

But oh well, here goes....

NUMBER ONE

So this stuff is pretty cool, even though I don't know

how to spell it and had to rely on Google spell check to help me out. My tip for Sudocrem is this...

PUT IT ON YA SPOTS.

The last few days I've been sprouting a miniature version

of the Himalayas on the bottom of my chin and 

pulling 'the scream' face in the mirror in absolute despair.

What could I do?!

Well my friends, I turned to my trusty little pot of Sudocrem

and slathered it over the little red minions on my chin.

As soon as I did that I got a tingling sensation,

the tell tale sign that whatever

it is you're using is doing something, and what do you know...

This morning I got up, looked in the mirror

and my Himalayas had been significantly reduced 

and my chin was smoother than an iceberg in the Antarctic, and the inflammation had ceased to exist. 

Incredible.

You can also apply it over your spots to give a smooth & even base on which to apply foundation too!

And it's only £2.55 at Boots! 

COR BLIMEY.

http://www.boots.com/en/Sudocrem-Antiseptic-Healing-Cream-125g_1666/

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NUMBER TWO

Now this stuff is free, AND it actually does help.

I used to mentally tell people to shut up when they

quacked on about the miracles of water, but then I actually

had a crack myself and I hold my hands up: it's true,

water does actually do stuff (good stuff).

So my first tip is number one, 

DRINK IT.

On average I drink just over 1.5 litres a day 

and it's actually not that hard.

In fact, it's kind of tasty in a weird way,

and trust me, you feel much better after drinking

water than you do after drinking coke or booze or whatever.

GO WATER!

My second tip is

WASH YA FACE WITH IT.

Don't invest all your money in fancy creams or washes or slush to whack all over your beautiful face, because there's really

no need to spend 5 or 6 quid when you could

spend nothing. 

When I became a teenager, I would be buying new products

every week to combat the ever increasing number of spots protruding out of my face, and let me tell you now,

NOTHING WORKED.

Then I started splashing cold (or lukewarm) water on my

face every morning and night, and hey presto, what

do you know, it actually made a difference!

YAY!

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NUMBER THREE

So I'm pretty sure all my friends swear by this stuff,

and every day someone utters those mortal words

'has anyone got any Vaseline' without fail.

I myself don't use it all the time, whenever I possibly can,

but I do applaud it's many benefits. 

For starters

SLATHER YOUR LIPS WITH IT

(Especially in the winter when they get drier than the Sahara)

GROW YOUR EYELASHES WITH IT

and what I mean by that is use a mascara brush,

dip it in the Vaseline or smooth Vaseline onto your lashes,

and then spread out your lashes with the brush

in the same way you would do with mascara.

And voila, look at those babies elongate.

You needn't fork out the doh on mascara

when you can spend near enough nothing on Vaseline! 

Ahhhhh the cheapskate life....

http://www.vaseline.co.uk/en-GB/?WT.srch=1

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NUMBER FOUR

I love this stuff.

E45 Cream is just simply fab fabbity fab,

especially when you're an unfortunate sufferer of dry skin syndrome (wahey, fun times).

Now an obvious tip is to apply this so that you don't

dry out like a sponge and resemble Spongebob Squarepants

minus the water, but I have a different one I want to share...

USE THIS TO GET A DEWY GLOW.

When you have dry skin, and you're all set out to

replenish the moisture in your pores, you'd normally

slather enough on so that you remain relatively moisturized

for the majority of the day.

BUT, you can be moisturized, or you can be dewy, 

and dewy is what all the fashionistas slave away for.

Dewy is just the right balance between oily

and dry, and when you have dry skin, you can achieve

this easily because you can control how moisturized your face appears.

 To look dewy, you want to apply a light cover of moisturizing

cream to your skin, and you want just enough so that the light gently caresses and reflects off the apples of 

your cheek, but not so much that you look like you've just ran the London Marathon with a sneaky triathlon thrown in there for good measure.

Next time Vogue snaps you up for it's front cover,

there's no need to thank me ;)

http://www.boots.com/en/E45-Cream-50g_1001093/ 

<3

I HOPE YOU ENJOY MY TIPS!

IF YOU HAVE ANY MORE PLEASE COMMENT (: