PEOPLE

When I found this the other day, I couldn't help but think how true it was.

It resonated with me so strongly, because it made me think of a couple of people

I've met this year, or people that I've grown really close too, who I would never had

thought I could click so well with, yet I do, and in some cases better than people I've

known for so much longer.

I've been lucky enough to meet some really wonderful people, people with whom

I can completely be myself around, people who never give me a reason to do anything

but smile, people who make me feel complete in some way, people who I truly hope

remain in my life for a long, long time to come.

These people are ones who I never saw coming, yet they just appeared, like

some greater force knew that they were exactly what I needed, the right kind of

people to surround myself with, and these people have given me hope in the world,

that some truly amazing people really do exist, and hoping to meet people like that 

isn't a foolish dream to have. It is real. They exist. You just have to find them.

Or wait for them to find you.

Another reason why I like this quote though, is because it isn't all the usual

'when you find someone like that you should never let them go', because I know

that in an ideal world, once you find these sorts of people you should never let

them out of your sight. But in the real world, it's not always that easy.

One person I've met this year, I know for almost certain that despite the

huge impact they've made on my life, we will go our separate ways in a few

months time. This person, one of those special people of whom you only 

meet but a few in your lifetime, will slip through my fingers, and even though 

finding someone like them has been a dream come true, we aren't close enough 

or confident enough to keep our relationship going. 

It's just something that existed in this moment in time, and it was special, and

beautiful while it lasted, and even though I wish I could take them with me through the

rest of my life, I just don't think it's meant to be. So I guess all you can do is just

appreciate what you had, what little you have left to come, and just be grateful. 

And as for those who you meet and you know will be sticking around, 

try to hold on to them for as long as you possibly can.

<3

BLACK & WHITE PHOTOGRAPHY

Here are some black and white photographs,

one of my favourite types of photography... :)

     

   

A few years ago I used to adore photography

and I would literally photograph things all the time.

I had a digital camera, a Canon film camera, a

Holga camera and I loved nothing more than taking

photos and editing them.

I still love how photography gives you the power

to show life from the perspective you choose.

You can make it beautiful, dreamy, real, honest.

I still love pouring over photographs in magazines,

on tumblr, my own photographs from years ago.

I just wish I hadn't stopped.

And the other day I went for a walk and I just

could not stop taking photos on my Ipod camera.

I was frustrated at how they didn't do the sights

I was seeing justice, but it reminded me of that

wonderful feeling you get when you take a good photo.

And it's addictive, and my urge to photograph has

been ignited, so now I'm looking for a new camera, or

perhaps I'll use my dad's old camera, and I'm going

to begin viewing the world through the lens all over again.

LIFE CHANGES// NOTE TO SELF//

Sometimes I like to read through my old journals

and notepads and diaries and remember all the things that

have happened to me. My life back then always seems so

different to life I have now and I find it strange

yet so interesting looking back on things in retrospective

when all is said and done and time has moved on.

I come across people who I had forgotten had such

an important influence over my life, people who I used

to care about so much but scarcely think of anymore, the same 

people I have in my life now or with whom my relationship

has changed either for the worse of for the better.

I come across hopes, aspirations, beliefs, fears,

problems, worries, struggles, changes, some of which I still

have, some that have changed completely and some which

no longer phase me like they used to or that I can laugh at now.

It's strange because you feel like the same person

you were back then and yet you don't.

When I read my old ramblings now I feel like a protective

and wise big sister, because although I read things

and I'm thinking 'no, don't do that, they'll only

hurt you' or 'oh no WHY WHY WHY WHY?!' at the same

time I'm thinking don't worry, you don't need to,

things will get better, trust me.

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That boy who drove you crazy won't bother you anymore,

that boy you never thought you'd get over well it turns

out you do. You and your friends will work out whatever

problems you had and you'll meet some amazing new friends

not far from now who you get on with so well.

You'll figure out what to do with your life and you'll 

work out what you want to do and how to do it.

You'll get those grades, you'll mend your heart,

you'll end up stronger, wiser, one day you'll talk to

boys without your face looking like a giant pimple.

Things might fall apart but better things will fall together.

There's still some obstacles to come but you'll get

through them and there's some amazing things that will 

happen that you are yet to experience.

It's true when they say everything happens for a reason,

you'll see that as you get older.

You aren't alone, you're not fat, ugly, unlovable,

you aren't worthless, you will pick yourself up,

dust yourself off and you will be okay.

The world won't end, the sun will shine again,

change will come and you will like it. You'll face 

your fears, find happiness in things you never expected to 

and do things you never expected to, and you won't worry 

about the trivial things so much. 

Life can be hard yet you'll realise it's 

value , you'll figure out what really matters and what doesn't

and you'll appreciate life in all it's perfections

and imperfections.

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