PEOPLE

When I found this the other day, I couldn't help but think how true it was.

It resonated with me so strongly, because it made me think of a couple of people

I've met this year, or people that I've grown really close too, who I would never had

thought I could click so well with, yet I do, and in some cases better than people I've

known for so much longer.

I've been lucky enough to meet some really wonderful people, people with whom

I can completely be myself around, people who never give me a reason to do anything

but smile, people who make me feel complete in some way, people who I truly hope

remain in my life for a long, long time to come.

These people are ones who I never saw coming, yet they just appeared, like

some greater force knew that they were exactly what I needed, the right kind of

people to surround myself with, and these people have given me hope in the world,

that some truly amazing people really do exist, and hoping to meet people like that 

isn't a foolish dream to have. It is real. They exist. You just have to find them.

Or wait for them to find you.

Another reason why I like this quote though, is because it isn't all the usual

'when you find someone like that you should never let them go', because I know

that in an ideal world, once you find these sorts of people you should never let

them out of your sight. But in the real world, it's not always that easy.

One person I've met this year, I know for almost certain that despite the

huge impact they've made on my life, we will go our separate ways in a few

months time. This person, one of those special people of whom you only 

meet but a few in your lifetime, will slip through my fingers, and even though 

finding someone like them has been a dream come true, we aren't close enough 

or confident enough to keep our relationship going. 

It's just something that existed in this moment in time, and it was special, and

beautiful while it lasted, and even though I wish I could take them with me through the

rest of my life, I just don't think it's meant to be. So I guess all you can do is just

appreciate what you had, what little you have left to come, and just be grateful. 

And as for those who you meet and you know will be sticking around, 

try to hold on to them for as long as you possibly can.

<3

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

Today my Nana & Grandad came round for dinner and we got

talking and one of the things we got talking about earlier

was a man my Nana used to date when she was younger.

Now I'm a big believer that everything happens for a 

reason, and my belief in this is something that I know

for a fact will never change. To me it just seems so

logical and what my Nana told me made me believe it

even more ( if that was possible)and this is the story...

So my Nana is Spanish, and she grew up in Spain

just after the Civil War. When she was a young woman

in the 1950's, she fell in love with a man from her 

village. He was called Alejandro and they were completely 

and utterly smitten with one another.

They were together for three years and everyone in the

village was certain that they were going to get married.

It all seemed so perfect for my beautiful Nana and the

handsome and lovely Alejandro, but sadly tragedy struck.

One day my Nana said goodbye to Alejandro and he said

he'd see her two days later, but he never made it.

Alejandro was involved in a car crash with his friends

and sadly it took his life. He was the only one not to 

survive. It makes me feel sad just thinking about it,

fifty years or so later, and for my Nana, it was

absolutely devastating -she had to wipe away tears 

as she told me. It broke her heart, she didn't

eat for days, she was so lost without him, and

it had come so out of the blue when it seemed like

nothing could go wrong.

And of course I understand how tragic it was as he

was so young and in love with his whole life ahead of

him, and Alejandro must've been the most loveliest guy,

judging by the way my Nana still speaks about him.

But the thing is, if he hadn't died on that day,

it's almost certain that my Nana would have married him

and she never would have moved to London, which

she did to try to overcome her broken heart, and most

importantly, she never would have met my Grandad. 

Even when she was in London, on the day she met my

Grandad at a dance hall somewhere in the city, she

was so close to going to meet another man next to

Victoria Station. I find it so strange to think that if

Alejandro hadn't died, or she had gone to meet

that other man instead of my Grandad, as a consequence

9 people including myself wouldn't be here, and who

knows who would be here in our place?

All of our lives were dependent on both the death

of a young man and a split decision that my Nana made 

without knowing at all what would happen as a result, 

not to mention the other decisions that our parents

and grandparents made and events that happened in between.

And when I think of the members of my family

and what they've achieved, all the lives that have

stemmed from my Nana and those before her, it feels

like we were meant to be here for a reason. 

It feels like everything that happened was meant to 

happen for a reason. In this case of Alejandro it's

so tragic, and I wish he hadn't died, but at the same

time maybe he was meant to die, because in losing one

life, nine more were made possible.

And I think that's pretty incredible.

And I can think of so many more examples of why 

everything must surely happen for a reason, but I think

that this is such a powerful example and I hope

you agree too :)

IT'S A VERY MERRY CHRIMBO

Hello my little festive friends

and Merry Christmas to you all!

I hope that these last few years have been 

supercalifragilisticexpialidotious for you (did I spell

that right? There isn't any spell check y'see)

and that you had a wonderful time

with your friends and family and got everything you

ever wanted :)

I also hope that like me you have been 

eating a box of Lindt chocolates a day average plus a decent helping of turkey and leftover xmas pud and what not

just because you can.

In the UK we're pro's at doing that, because

to almost everyone over here, Christmas is a license 

to eat and drink all those naughty little 

goods and treats and no-one

is allowed to bat an eyelid. If you do,

everyone turns on you and shoves chocolate

in your mouth to shut you up.

Here's an example:

*Man reaches over for a bottle of wine which

he proceeds to glug at an alarming rate*
Girl: what are you doing drinking all that?

Man: It's Christmas!

*Girl laughs* oh well that's alright then!

-OR-

*Girl frowns* you shouldn't be drinking all that!
*Man shoves chocolate in her mouth*

THE END.

So yeah, fun times!

In the UK we're also all completely hooked on

 the Harry Potter films, which ITV have

been showing in the run up to Christmas with

Deathly Hallows Part One being shown yesterday

much to my delight.

We all got our wands out and everything.

;)

Now moving on to my own Christmas,

which began with a trip to see Disney's Frozen in Nottingham

and another helping of some gorgeous Spanish churro's 

NOM NOM NOM.

This year I was super lucky and got my wish of getting

my own laptop, which I am truly and deeply in love

with. She hasn't got a name yet, but

she's red and she's gorgeous and amazing and

definitely desirable no 1 (that's Harry Potter rubbing of

on me right there).

I got to spend Chrimbo with my family here

in Derby (waheeyy) and luckily we haven't been affected by

the storms, just some pretty aggressive wind

that makes me certain the house is going to blow away

in time for the New Year.

Lovely Jubbly.

In my house we had the record players on and

we were singing and dancing to the vinyl records I mentioned in my last post and eating chocolates with Christmas

TV on in the background.

My contribution to Christmas this year was making

starters (a seafood extravaganza) and the amazing Christmas

crowns like the ones I made last year.

We had:

-Maria -all I want for Christmas- Carey

-Ady Baby

-Rosanna in the Highest

-Saint Tashalus (englightening the world with

great facial hair)

It's safe to say they were a runaway success.

Now I hope that you too had an amazing Christmas

and that you have an absolutely amazing New Year.

I'll see you down the gym

-I'll be the one walking on the running machine

trying hard not to sweat.

AN HOUR WITH YOU...

I just drew this little

cutie on my graphics tablet,

and I wanted to share it with you, my lovely

readers, wherever you may be.

It's inspired by a certain someone, yes,

however their identity shall

remain a secret for now.

But if you've read some of my earlier posts,

you might be able to guess who...

And for me, the person I like to

spend my hours with is someone who makes

me laugh, who I can talk

to about anything and everything,

who I am 100% myself with,

and who makes my life 

just a little bit brighter than it 

ever was before.

I never know just what we will talk about,

or what will happen when

we are brought together, 

we can talk about anything from

our dreams, our likes, our favourites.

And we never seem to stop.

And I know that when I walk away I

am smiling, and I am happy, and when I am with

this person, I feel exactly the same.

I crave their company,

I look forward to seeing this person,

I look forward to hearing just what tales they have to

say, I like being near them,

close to them.

I wouldn't say I'm in love with this person,

but I feel myself falling just

a little bit each time I am with them, and one day

 in the future I will look at this person

and realise I have fallen in love with everything

they are and everything they are not

without even realising it.

But then again, if fate has other plans,

and we just simply remain friends, I will also be happy 

because having this person somewhere in my life

 is all that matters.

You can't buy that connection,

it's either there or it's not, and whether it be friendship

 or love, you must never let it go.

<3